Sangha Sitting

128813449363866226breathing innnnnn…. breathing out….. breathing innnnn…. breathing out…. damn, my feet are freezing… why didn’t i bring an extra pair of socks… i should keep a pair in the car this time of year… winter… pffffffftttttttttttttt….thank god i put a coat in there, you could hang meat in….thinking…. thinking… thinking…. ommanipadmeomommanipadmeomomamnipadme…Is that guy falling asleep??? don’t you dare laugh… omg – he IS falling asleep… we just started and he…. thinking…. thinking…. thinking…. innnnnn….  outttttt…. innnnnn…. outttttt….yep, sleeping – his head almost hit the wall that time…. for the love of gawwwd, Stephanie, will you shut up????…. innnnnn…. outttttt…. innnnnn outttttt…. [insert image  — black and white hand drawing – of WildElephantMind tethered gingerly by tiny stick figure human being]… ommanipadmeomommanipadmeomommanipadmeomommanipadmeommani…you know, you should be able to do this without a mantra… you should be able to just SIT after all these years… what is wrong with you anyway?  can’t you just ….thinking… thinking… thinking….. innnn…. outtttt….. innnnnn….. innnnnn…. outttttttttttt….. innnnnnnnnnnn….. outttttttttt….. wish they’d left the drapes open… what a view… i wonder if those cows ever come all the way up to the house?  it looked like they were going to get in the car with me… so beautiful…they have an awfully thick coat to be this early in the winter….wonder why they didn’t let me pet them?… surely they knew i wouldn’t hurt them…. wonder if they can sense when someone’s a vegetar….thinking…. thinking…. thinking…. THINKINGTHINKINGTHINKINGTHINKINGGGGGGG….. [insert image – black and white hand drawing  — of WildElephantMind breaking free of tiny stick figure tethers ] innnn…. outtttt…. innnnnn…. outtttttt…. innnnnn ….outtttttttt…. innnnnnnn…. outttttttttt…. innnnnnn….. outttttttttt……what tiny little stitches in those draperies….the pattern looks like…. what?…. like thousands of little alien heads… yeah, that’s…no, wait… owls…. no, wait… fish… upside down fish…. no, no, no, no — cat faces!… they look just like cat faces!… well, hell — of course you think they look like cat faces…. ugh, just how lost in ego ARE you, anyhow… lost… very….thinking…. thinking…. thinking…. maybe another mantra…tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha… tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha… tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bohi svaha… tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha… tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha……. tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha… tadyatha om gate gate paragate parasamgate bohdhi svaha… tadyathat om gate gate para… wonder if it’s bad form to use a Tibetan mantra in Zen sitting… hmmm… it may be, who knows?… that’s right – who’s going to know?… but if it’s wrong, am i somehow messing up sitting for the others?  do they somehow know there’s Tibetan mantras floating arou….for the love of god, Stephanie, SHUT UP… thinking… thinking… innnn….. ouuuttttt…. innnnnnnn…there goes a road runner!  oh wow!  why didn’t they leave these drapes open??? look at his tail! look at….. [insert black and white hand drawing of WildElephantMind run amuck while tiny stick figure human being sighs and shakes head]…

 

© s rogers 25 October 2009

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